Time Change & Motherly Love

Springing forward an hour has been fine for my husband and son... not so much for me.  I'm wide awake & it's 11:59 pm.  Yes.  One more minute and it's a new day...

So, here I sit in a dark living room... no noise... no talking... just me and my laptop which is providing most of the light.  Currently, my mind is racing...  From the organization I need to accomplish in my life, to our summer plans getting started, to my throat hurting all day long, to Fashion Star which I ridiculously watched, to my child that possibly sprained his ankle tonight and decided to crawl around the house this evening rather then walking... Should I have taken him to the ER?  He wasn't crying.  Was he faking?  Hell, I don't know... Yes, tonight is what I like to call a 'thinking evening'...  Do you ever have one of those?  Nights where your mind is racing so much, you can't even begin to relax and settle in to bed.  I tried... For about an hour and a half.  Failed.  Decided to get up, grab some decaf tea {painful throat} and write a blog post.  I should be reading... I have The Hunger Games to read in the next 10 days but this sounded better.  See... mind is RACING.  Moving on...

My kiddo is 2 1/2 and the most common question I hear on a DAILY BASIS is, 'When are you going to have another kid?'...  Gosh, I wish I had an easy answer.  I normally just laugh and say, 'Not yet.'  I was lucky during my first pregnancy.  It didn't take Dan and I long to get pregnant with the wild man.  Minus weight gain, my pregnancy was easy and my C-section was as smooth as it goes.  My biggest struggle was the part in actually 'becoming' a parent.  I could handle all the 3:00 am feedings, the diaper changing, the spit up on my shirts... What I couldn't wrap my brain around was adjusting my entire life to this new being.  I would cry some nights wondering what had happened.  Why was it that everyone else around me was still living their normal life when mine had changed so drastically?  It was a struggle, no lie.  As more time passed, I got use to the idea of just being 'the parent in the 'burbs' to those around me.  I was one of the first of my friends to have a child and had to get use to the fact that our lives were just different... Different meaning the random dinner nights, Mavs games, happy hours and such had to come to a halt and in order for anything spontaneous to happen, we'd need a sitter.  And yet... slowly, I didn't seem to mind.  Now that Mason is older, I've become very comfortable in my life as a mom.  Wine from a box, frozen burgers on the grill and potato chips has turned into something much more valuable then just a casual dinner at home.  I've become more in tune to knowing the value of having a family and the small joys having a child can bring.  There is truly nothing like it.

Recently, talks with other moms on having second babies has increased rapidly.  I guess by seeing their new adventures begin or with Mason getting older, I have slowly started the process of wrapping my brain around adding another baby into our world.  Last time was so much easier for me.  It was all in the number.  I had to be 28.  Once I turned that, I wanted to get pregnant and have a kid... Little did I know there was a TAD more to it when becoming a parent.  Ha.  Now, the decision seems entirely different.  Wrapping my head around two kids has taken me much longer then I imagined it would.  Two schedules.  Two bedtimes.  Two mouths to feed.  And most of all, two hearts to share my love.  I love Mason more then anything...  He brings me joy like no other... {most of the time...*wink*}... But, the thought of having to share that love with another child seems very hard for me to comprehend.  How will Mason react!?  Will I feel comforted in knowing that each child is getting an equal amount of love!?  How will I sleep!?  How will I shower!?  Yes.  It ranges from love to showering... Don't judge.  I just can't comprehend what is it going to be like.  Will my world now with my favorite 2 1/2 year old be that much more different?  Who knows.  I don't... clearly.  I'm not quit sure why I felt compelled to write about this tonight... I guess maybe saying it out loud or openly expressing my fears in parenting and life makes it seem like you aren't alone.  That each mom/dad/parent goes through things that challenges our hearts.  The greatest gift imaginable is bringing a child into this world... And on a daily basis I praise God above for granting me one.  I guess in the end, I just hope I have enough courage to do it again.  Enough strength, wisdom, patience and most of all, love...

1:20 am.  Enjoy your Wednesday and thanks for reading...

It's March...

Actually, it's the middle of March.  Where have I been?????  I'm gonna post 'list style' of the last two weeks...
1) God has blessed me with a new nephew.  Trent Doran Love and I love him to pieces.  He makes for the 5th grandson on Dan's side of the family... Love all these boys so much!!  Here is Big Brother Brady & sweet Trent...

2) We got new appliances... Love them... The hubby got on board {finally} and made it happen.  Next up new sink... Thinking white.  What do you think?  I can't decide... Need your thoughts.

3) Jordan brought his precious girlfriend home for a few days and I was thrilled to get to hang out with her again.  She is as cool as they come...  And a Theta.  Love Miss Haley. 

4) I added some pictures and a lamp to my laundry room... Everyone needs a little 'spice' when folding clothes.  The background for the pictures is fabric... Worked like a charm.  And that lamp was my grandma's.  Love that I get to think of her every time I turn it on. 

5) My sweet wild man has been having some sleeping troubles... This was at CheeChee's house on the sofa.  Love him.

6) Lately, Mason man has pressured us in to letting him 'sit in the booth like mommy and daddy' when we go to dinner...  We told him tonight, if he behaved, we would allow him to sit like a big boy and then we would go see the 'water falls' at the fountain next to our restaurant.  He was a CHAMP.  Love that boy more then anything.  He has conformed to his mommy and daddy's need to go out to dinner every weekend.  We celebrated our big boy with water falls and ice cream with Daddy. 

7) Lastly, I need some prayers for a sorority sister of mine.  She has precious twin boys that are around a year and a half.  In the last 2 days, one son {Logan} has been placed in the ICU for seizures.  PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PRAY.  Stop reading, fold your hands and pray to God that he brings good health and strength.  Please.

Hugs to you all.  I'll be back soon... promise.

Lent Begins...

Hey kids... 40 days starts today. What are you giving up?  I have a few things this year, some open, some private... My husband... Skittles.  It just makes me laugh.  Or it did, until he told me the AMOUNT he has on a weekly basis.  HOLY COW.  Whatever each person needs to do to make themselves better... I'm all for it.


I have some quotes for today... To help us all celebrate life, love and the small stuff...


*Unless you love, your life will flash by.


*We can learn a lot from crayons;
Some are colorful, Some have a darker edge
But they are all from the same box.


*Life is like an hourglass...
Eventually, everything hits rock bottom.
And all your have to do is wait it out until someone comes along to turn it all around.


*There comes a time in life, when you walk away from all the drama and people who create it. 
You surround yourself with people who
Make you laugh, forget the bad, and focus on the good. 
So, love the people who treat you right. 
Think good thoughts for the ones who don't. 
Life is too short to be anything but happy. 
Falling down is part of LIFE...Getting back up is LIVING...


And for the one who gave his life...
"I sought the LORD, and he answered me;
he delivered me from all my fears.
Those who look to him are radiant;
their faces are never covered with shame.
This poor man called, and the LORD heard him;
he saved him out of all his troubles.
The angel of the LORD encamps around those who fear him,
and he delivers them." Psalm 34:4-7 (NIV)


And finally...
*Vast in the sunshine....

Valentine's Day for Moms...

Happy Sunday... How was everyone's weekend?  Ours was relaxing which we loved...  It was the first weekend in a long time that we were all home and had nothing on the books.  I did step away to enjoy a wedding shower for a good friend... It was so fun seeing old college friends and walk down memory lane for a few hours.  After that came steaks, wine and movies with my hubby.

This past week, I had a Valentine's Day party for some of my favorite moms and their kids.  It was a wonderful morning and I loved having 25 kids and moms run around my house, chasing kids, decorating crafts and having pink champagne.

 This about sums it up... What a fun fun day!  Thanks to all the moms & kiddos that came... 

Orange.

Here is my latest project... {as promised}... via iphone pictures...

$19.99 dresser from a resale shop...

 $32.00 for some orange paint {w/ primer}

 Yes, my garage is very organized... or wait...

 $39.99 for 6 new handles from the hardware store... And, yes, I need a manicure...

 Drum rolllllllllllllll.....

 Perfect for my wild man's room... Just need some pictures!  {And bigger lamps, but my husband seems to disagree.}

 Love the hardware... $91.98 total.  Not too bad for a big ole dresser.  Next up is curtains for the wild man's room... Then I'll post full room pictures of our updates! 

Hope everyone had a lovely Valentine's Day!